[ She doesn't know any of the details so she doesn't know anything about sacrifices and fighters. There's no destiny or claiming involved in hers. She's like this by choice. Even if Cinder thinks she needs correcting from time to time, or she gets a little overzealous. ]
seimei, for once, isn’t confident in how to proceed. emerald is talking like she understands soubi, which is far from seimei’s ideal for her at this stage in their relationship. ]
Then I changed my mind.
I was a bit hasty; you and Soubi must have a lot to talk about. Though I hope your master is kinder than his.
I don't call her my master. I owed everything I had to her, so I would've done anything she needed. She's my family. She's not kind, but she can't be because of what she's doing. That's all.
[ Emerald is the only one who believes that, though, and even she has to say it regularly to convince herself nowadays. Which is why Seimei gets that statement even if he never asked for it simply from saying that he hoped she was kinder. She's defensive. Even her own partner doesn't believe Cinder cares about her, she has to keep asserting it. ]
[ there are the vulnerabilities seimei had sensed before, in her anger on the network. he’s surprised, but not displeased, to see them so blatantly on display—he just wishes he knew what to do with it. ]
I believe you. That kind of loyalty doesn’t come from nothing.
I am Soubi’s master. I hadn’t planned on saying it, but I don’t think there’s any harm in admitting to that much. I hope you’ll take good care of him when I’m busy.
[ having a dog babysit another dog is different than when he had come in thinking of emerald as a person. it’s fine. ]
[ She doesn't have much to say beyond that after he mentions loyalty. The fact is, despite her dedication and insistence, she's already broken that loyalty by saying she wants to go home with someone else. But that's a little too much baggage to share, especially when the rest of it wasn't share intentionally. Cinder doesn't even know about it, but she feels like she set a bridge on fire while the other one fell behind her. It's something that she had considered getting "better" about- more self-confidence, more willingness to make her own choices. But losing Akashi has made her want to lean back into it, because it's safer. If she loses Mayuzumi, she really will be alone again because while Mercury cares in his own way, he refuses to be any kind of support for her beyond physical. He flat-out said that if she questions her choice with Cinder and Salem, she needs to leave him out of it.
She doesn't want to end up alone again, and so part of her just wants to lean back onto Cinder despite that betrayal and hope that it isn't found out. The comment about loyalty is too hard to respond to right now. It's easier to focus on the second part of his text. She is smart, even if she doesn't feel like it a lot of the time, and him finally admitting it does give her a boost of confidence. ]
Ha ha ha. He fights better when I’m around, but he’s quite good on his own. I think you’ll have trouble.
[ although it seems like he’s being free with information about himself, every little tidbit is cautiously released. he still needs to figure out what makes emerald tick, and how to get that under his control. ]
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That's my place in my world too.
[ She doesn't know any of the details so she doesn't know anything about sacrifices and fighters. There's no destiny or claiming involved in hers. She's like this by choice. Even if Cinder thinks she needs correcting from time to time, or she gets a little overzealous. ]
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seimei, for once, isn’t confident in how to proceed. emerald is talking like she understands soubi, which is far from seimei’s ideal for her at this stage in their relationship. ]
Then I changed my mind.
I was a bit hasty; you and Soubi must have a lot to talk about. Though I hope your master is kinder than his.
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She's not kind, but she can't be because of what she's doing. That's all.
[ Emerald is the only one who believes that, though, and even she has to say it regularly to convince herself nowadays. Which is why Seimei gets that statement even if he never asked for it simply from saying that he hoped she was kinder. She's defensive. Even her own partner doesn't believe Cinder cares about her, she has to keep asserting it. ]
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I believe you. That kind of loyalty doesn’t come from nothing.
I am Soubi’s master. I hadn’t planned on saying it, but I don’t think there’s any harm in admitting to that much. I hope you’ll take good care of him when I’m busy.
[ having a dog babysit another dog is different than when he had come in thinking of emerald as a person. it’s fine. ]
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She doesn't want to end up alone again, and so part of her just wants to lean back onto Cinder despite that betrayal and hope that it isn't found out. The comment about loyalty is too hard to respond to right now. It's easier to focus on the second part of his text. She is smart, even if she doesn't feel like it a lot of the time, and him finally admitting it does give her a boost of confidence. ]
No promises. I owe him an ass-kicking.
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[ although it seems like he’s being free with information about himself, every little tidbit is cautiously released. he still needs to figure out what makes emerald tick, and how to get that under his control. ]
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TTYL Seimei.